Make Me Interesting!

I understand my blog really has no rhyme or reason to it. I originally started my blog when I found out that I was getting married. Not to mention that I was going to be moving half way around the world. With the time difference I thought it would be a great way to keep family and friends in the loop on the new chapter in my life. Now that that chapter is closed, I feel like I am back at square one. We moved back to our home town. I personally didn't welcome the move with high hopes or any excitement. Aside from the sob story about moving back to the most familiar place I know, I was thinking about my blog and what I would do with it now. The day in age where people actually get paid to have fun and interesting blogs. I don't really have much of anything fun to write about nor to I lead a very interesting life. So why bother keep it?? This blog and really turned into me rambling at random hours of the night. So shall I keep the blog and continue my random blogs? Try and turn it into something interesting with one of my few skills?

Contentment

We all feel regret, anger, and sadness differently. It may be something we personally did or something someone may have pushed you to do. I had a dream last night about an old boss that wronged me in a professional way. Then because of a personal life choice I made she felt that I stabbed her in the back. When I woke up after the dream I wanted to reach out to her and see how she is. Me thinking it's been almost 3-4 years since all this happened at what point do you just forgive and forget? That is just that, forgive and forget. I don't know that re-opening that chapter in my life again is the wisest choice. Then I started thinking about all the people in my past and how happy I am that they are there. Some of the people are great individuals and at some point in both of our lives needed to take other paths and that should be that. Why all of a sudden I feel the need to be remorseful is beyond me but I'm glad I was quickly able to put it in to real perspective. I know there is a reason for everything and people come into our lives to help teach us lessons, some are more painful then others. I have learned so much from each and every one of these people that are no longer in my life. I know that their friendships weren't a waste of time but another life lesson. Because of my old boss I know now how to keep personal and professional life separate, especially when it comes to being friends with coworkers. I have learned valuable lessons in renting a home and what to look for and again to keep that professionalism of being a landlord and a tenant. I have learned that even in the best of intentions some relationships, romantic and friendship, sometimes things just don't work out.
I think my recent eye opener about who I am was shined upon with the comment that, you are associated with the people you are around the most. I have thought about it over and over and realized even if you try not to judge people we all do it. I know everyone is different and has their own personalities but sadly it's true, you are who you associate with.

5 Months and counting

Well hello there my lovely blog followers! I know it's been some time! You may be wondering why I posted 3 other blogs in one day.... Funny story actually! If you read them they all took place at different times. One was (like it said) 14 days before our 1 year wedding anniversary, so Feb 2013. The other was a few months after we got home from our trip to ABQ. The other was at some point, more than likely, during the start of summer. Well I never published them like a ding, sue me!

If you are reading this it's because you are my FB friend so you know all about my sleep, or sleepless, habits! haha My sister told me to start a journal. I know this wasn't exactly what she had in mind but I think writing anything may help ease my mind and make me sleepy. Honestly I'm getting a little sleepy right now.

So what's going on? Same ol' Same ol'. With our time coming to a close here in Turkey I've been thinking a lot about the people I've met, the places I've seen and the different opportunities I've been graced with. For starts I have met some truly AMAZING people since I have been here. If I take anything from this experience it's the people that have come into my life and helped change it for the better and the few experiences that may not have been so much good but taught me valuable lessons!

As sad as I am that we won't get the opportunity to stay in Europe longer I am grateful that we were able to come live in another country. And even though we haven't been able to visit as many places as we had wanted to, I have still seen some beautiful countries and meet wonderful people from all over the world! We still have time for one last big vacation and it is going to be AWESOME! I'm very excited about it and can't wait to get all the details figured out!

I'm excited to see where our next adventure will be taking us and trying hard to look at all the positives of going back to the states. Like I said I was sad and it still upsets me from time to time, but I think for the most part I took my day or two to be really upset and now it's time to move on and deal with it like an adult haha. Lots of good things to come for the Brady family and I'm excited to finish off our last 5 months here with a bang!

It's been some time

I've neglected my poor little blog. I wanted to blog while I was home but to be honest I wanted to take that time to enjoy family and friends. I was going to blog when we got back, I was too sad to write anything. Leaving home the second time around was a lot harder then before. I think it was because I knew that Turkey is my new home and I wouldn't see my family again for at least another year. Not to mention leaving our new baby niece Zoey and not getting to meet baby Lauren (because she wasn't born yet). I've been really putting blogging off. I think it's because every time I think about writing  all I can think about is how much I miss home and how I am ready to be done with this place. I had a great time on our vacation though, it was awesome to get to hang out with family and friends.

What has been going on in the life of Pamela? Well I have been working a lot. Lots of changes at work and with summer around the corner this should be interesting. I've realized in the (almost year) I have worked at the youth center that I love kids and I do enjoy working with them, I am just not cut out for watching mass quantities of kids. Give me 4 kids awesome! You give me 12-18, not so much! Mob mentality as my husband would say, you get that many kids together they take over! Not to mention I don't have my "mom" voice or that stern "knock that sh*t off" voice haha. I think it also has to do with a lot of the time I'm perplexed as to what these kids are doing/thinking.

Life

It is crazy how much my life has changed in just a year. Two years ago I would have never thought my life would have taken the turn that is has. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think that I would live in another country. I am so lucky to have my best friend by my side through it all. With that being said I can't believe that in 14 days it will be our 1st wedding anniversary! This year has really gone by quickly.

Kids

Summer time is here which means I get to spend ALL day with the kids I work with. Working with kids has to be one of the toughest jobs I've ever had. I've dealt with creepers, jerks, stalkers, backstabbers, users, insolent people and strangers that shared WAY too much about their personal life. I have also met some amazingly great people that have turned into, what I hope to be, life long friends. Yes I understand that in most jobs you have your good days and your bad days. I have never had a job that was such and emotional roller coaster like this job. Children are like sponges, they absorb EVERYTHING they hear and see. It really puts into perspective survival of the fittest and how these children are molded  purely by what they see their peers do. It's truly amazing how much you think your habits, good and bad, don't affect the kids that watch you and look up to you. KIDS SEE EVERYTHING! Children are SO much smarter then we give them credit. There are days that I am so overwhelmed with joy at the AMAZING behavior in some of these children, but this is a double edged sword. With all the good comes the bad! It is truly heart breaking to see how mean and hurtful humans can be to one another. It's also interesting to see the sense of entitlement some of these kids give themselves, not to mention how conniving and manipulative they can be as well. I can't be too heart broken about it I suppose. A lot of these kids are forced to grow up so quickly they don't have a chance to be naive or innocent.  

Work out

I must be doing this whole work out thing totally wrong. Who ever says working out makes you "feel better" and gives you a lot of energy is a liar! I hate running and going to the gym because it seems like as soon as I am done I am tired as shit and SUPER hungry. When I say super hungry I mean like I want to stuff my face with terrible food, junk food, ANY FOOD and lots of it. Then I usually pass out after I eat.
MEH! I just don't like going to the gym because I don't like people looking at me. I feel like a total jack ass at the gym, like I don't know what I am doing. Guess it's time to start trying to do yoga on my own. New years resolution maybe???